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My Country has never been Proud of Me and it sure as hell has never been grateful for My Sacrifice.
Happy Holidays To One And All
Navy SEAL Code: BENGHAZI
LEST WE FORGET
Subject: Navy SEAL Code: BENGHAZI
BENGHAZI: The stunning part of this story is that Tyrone Woods and Glen Doherty killed 60 of the attacking force. Once the compound was overrun, the attackers were incensed to discover that just two men had inflicted so much death and destruction.
The news has been full of the attacks on our embassies throughout the Muslim world, and in particular, the deaths of Ambassador Chris Stevens and three others in Benghazi, Libya. Theres a little known story of incredible bravery, heroics, and courage that should be the top story of every news agency across the fruited plain.
So what actually happened at the U.S. embassy in Libya? We are learning more about this every day. Ambassador Stevens and Foreign Service officer Sean Smith, along with administrative staff, were working out of temporary quarters due to the fact that in the spring of 2011 during the so-called Arab Spring, the United States cut ties with then president Moammar Gadhafi. Our embassy was looted and ransacked, causing it to be unusable. It is still in a state of disrepair.
Security for embassies and their personnel is to be provided by the host nation. Since Libya has gone through a civil war of sorts in the past 18 months, the current government is very unstable, and therefore, unreliable.
A well-organized attack by radical Muslims was planned specifically targeting the temporary U.S. embassy building. The Libyan security force that was in place to protect our people deserted their post, or joined the attacking force. Either way, our people were in a real fix. And it should be noted that Ambassador Stevens had mentioned on more than one occasion to Secretary of State, Hillary Clinton, that he was quite concerned for his personal safety and the welfare of his people. It is thought that Ambassador Stevens was on a hit list.
A short distance from the American compound, two Americans were sleeping. They were in Libya as independent contractors working an assignment totally unrelated to our embassy. They also happened to be former Navy SEALs. When they heard the noise coming from the attack on our embassy, as you would expect from highly trained warriors, they ran to the fight. Apparently, they had no weapons, but seeing the Libyan guards dropping their guns in their haste in fleeing the scene, Tyrone Woods and Glen Doherty snatched up several of these discarded weapons and prepared to defend the American compound.
Not knowing exactly what was taking place, the two SEALs set up a defensive perimeter. Unfortunately Ambassador Stevens was already gravely injured, and Foreign Service officer, Sean Smith, was dead. However, due to their quick action and suppressive fire, twenty administrative personnel in the embassy were able to escape to safety. Eventually, these two courageous men were overwhelmed by the sheer numbers brought against them, an enemy force numbering between 100 to 200 attackers which came in two waves. But the stunning part of the story is that Tyrone Woods and Glen Doherty killed 60 of the attacking force. Once the compound was overrun, the attackers were incensed to discover that just two men had inflicted so much death and destruction.
As it became apparent to these selfless heroes, they were definitely going to lose their lives unless some reinforcements showed up in a hurry. As we know now, that was not to be. Im fairly certain they knew they were going to die in this gun fight, but not before they took a whole lot of bad guys with them!
Consider these tenets of the Navy SEAL Code: 1) Loyalty to Country, Team and Teammate, 2) Serve with Honor and Integrity On and Off the Battlefield, 3) Ready to Lead, Ready to Follow, Never Quit, 4) Take responsibility for your actions and the actions of your teammates, 5) Excel as Warriors through Discipline and Innovation, 6) Train for War, Fight to Win, Defeat our Nations Enemies, and 7) Earn your Trident every day ( http://www.navyseals.com/seal-code-warrior-creed).
Thank you, Tyrone and Glen. To the very last breath, you both lived up to the SEAL Code. You served all of us well. You were courageous in the face of certain death.
And Tyrone, even though you never got to hold your newborn son, he will grow up knowing the character and quality of his father, a man among men who sacrificed himself defending others. God bless America!
Dr. Charles R. Roots Senior Pastor Former Staff Sergeant, USMC Captain, U. S. Navy Chaplain Corps (Ret)
This should be passed on and on and on.
NO TRUE AMERICAN WOULD OBJECT TO RECEIVING THIS MORE THAN ONCE .. SO PASS IT ON Ö THEY GAVE ALL THEY HAD TO GIVEÖ.
Seals Reveal Truth About Bin Laden Raid
Osama Bin Laden was killed within 90 seconds of the US Navy Seals landing in his compound and not after a protracted gun battle, according to the first account by the men who carried out the raid.
The operation was so clinical that only 12 bullets were fired.
The Seals have spoken out because they were angered at the version given by politicians, which they see as portraying them as cold-blooded murderers on a kill mission. They were also shocked that President Barack 0bama announced Bin Ladenís death on television the same evening, rendering useless much of the intelligence they had seized.
Chuck Pfarrer, a former commander of Seal Team 6, which conducted the operation, has interviewed many of those who took part for a book, Seal Target Geronimo, to be published in the US this week.
The Seals own accounts differ from the White House version, which gave the impression that Bin Laden was killed at the end of the operation rather than in its opening seconds. Pfarrer insists Bin Laden would have been captured had he surrendered.
There isnít a politician in the world who could resist trying to take credit for getting Bin Laden but it devalued the intelligence and gave time for every other Al-Qaeda leader to scurry to another bolthole, said Pfarrer. The men who did this and their valorous act deserve better.
Itís a pretty shabby way to treat these guys. The first hint of the mission came in January last year when the teamís commanding officer was called to a meeting at the headquarters of joint special operations command. The meeting was held in a soundproof bunker three stories below ground with his boss, Admiral William McRaven, and a CIA officer.
They told him a walled compound in Pakistan had been under surveillance for a couple of weeks. They were certain a high-value individual was inside and needed a plan to present to the president. It had to be someone important. So is this Bert or Ernie? he asked.
The Seals nicknames for Bin Laden and his deputy Ayman al-Zawahiri are a reference to two Muppets in Sesame Street, one tall and thin and the other short and fat. We have a voice print, said the CIA officer, and were 60% or 70% certain itís our guy. McRaven added that a reconnaissance satellite had measured the targets shadow. Over 6ft tall.
When McRaven added they would use Ghost Hawk helicopters, the team leader had no doubt. These are the most classified, sophisticated stealth helicopters ever developed, said Pfarrer. They are kept in locked hangars and fly so quiet we call it whisper mode.
Over the next couple of months a plan was hatched. A mock-up of the compound was built at Tall Pines, an army facility in a national forest somewhere in the eastern US.
Four reconnaissance satellites were placed in orbit over the compound, sending back video and communications intercepts. A tall figure seen walking up and down was named the Pacer.
Obama gave the go-ahead and Seal Team 6, known as the Jedi, was deployed to Afghanistan. The White House cancelled plans to provide air cover using jet fighters, fearing this might endanger relations with Pakistan.
Sending in the Ghost Hawks without air cover was considered too risky so the Seals had to use older Stealth Hawks. A Prowler electronic warfare aircraft from the carrier USS Carl Vinson was used to jam Pakistanís radar and create decoy targets.
Operation Neptuneís Spear was initially planned for April 30 but bad weather delayed it until May 1, a moonless night. The commandos flew on two Stealth Hawks, codenamed Razor 1 and 2, followed by two Chinooks five minutes behind, known as Command Bird and the gun platform. On board, each Seal was clad in body amour and night vision goggles and equipped with laser targets, radios and sawn-off M4 rifles. They were expecting up to 30 people in the main house, including Bin Laden and three of his wives, two sons, Khalid and Hamza, his courier, Abu Ahmed al- Kuwaiti, four bodyguards and a number of children. At 56 minutes past midnight the compound came into sight and the code Palm Beach signaled three minutes to landing. Razor 1 hovered above the main house, a three-story building where Bin Laden lived on the top floor. Twelve Seals roped the 5ft-6ft down onto the roof and then jumped to a third-floor patio, where they kicked in the windows and entered.
The first person the Seals encountered was a terrified woman, Bin Ladenís third wife, Khaira, who ran into the hall. Blinded by a searing white strobe light they shone at her, she stumbled back. A Seal grabbed her by the arm and threw her to the floor. Bin Ladenís bedroom was along a short hall. The door opened; he popped out and then slammed the door shut. Geronimo, Geronimo, Geronimo, radioed one Seal, meaning eyes on target.
At the same time lights came on from the floor below and Bin Ladenís son Khalid came running up the stairs towards the Seals. He was shot dead.
Two Seals kicked in Bin Ladenís door. The room, they later recalled, smelt like old clothing, like a guest bedroom in a grandmotherís house. Inside was the Al-Qaeda leader and his youngest wife, Amal, who was screaming as he pushed her in front of him. No, no, donít do this! she shouted as her husband reached across the king-size bed for his AK-47 assault rifle. The Seals reacted instantly, firing in the same second. One round thudded into the mattress. The other, aimed at Bin Ladenís head, grazed Amal in the calf. As his hand reached for the gun, they each fired again: one shot hit his breastbone, the other his skull, killing him instantly and blowing out the back of his head.
Meanwhile Razor 2 was heading for the guesthouse, a low, shoebox-like building, where Bin Ladenís courier, Kuwaiti, and his brother lived. As the helicopter neared, a door opened and two figures appeared, one waving an AK-47. This was Kuwaiti. In the moonless night he could see nothing and lifted his rifle, spraying bullets wildly.
He did not see the Stealth Hawk. On board someone shouted, Bust him!, and a sniper fired two shots. Kuwaiti was killed, as was the person behind him, who turned out to be his wife. Also on board were a CIA agent, a Pakistani-American who would act as interpreter, and a sniffer dog called Karo, wearing dog body armor and goggles.
Within two minutes the Seals from Razor 2 had cleared the guesthouse and removed the women and children.
They then ran to the main house and entered from the ground floor, checking the rooms. One of Bin Ladenís bodyguards was waiting with his AK-47. The Seals shot him twice and he toppled over.
Five minutes into the operation the command Chinook landed outside the compound, disgorging the commanding officer and more men. They blasted through the compound wall and rushed in.
The commander made his way to the third floor, where Bin Ladenís body lay on the floor face up. Photographs were taken, and the commander called on his satellite phone to headquarters with the words: Geronimo Echo KIA Bin Laden enemy killed in action.
This was the first time the White House knew he was dead and it was probably 20 minutes into the raid, said Pfarrer. A sample of Bin Ladenís DNA was taken and the body was bagged. They kept his rifle. It is now mounted on the wall of their team room at their headquarters in Virginia Beach, Virginia, alongside photographs of a dozen colleagues killed in action in the past 20 years.
At this point things started to go wrong. Razor 1 took off but the top secret green unit that controls the electronics failed. The aircraft went into a spin and crashed tail-first into the compoundÖ The Seals were alarmed, thinking it had been shot down, and several rushed to the wreckage. The crew climbed out, shaken but unharmed.
The commanding officer ordered them to destroy Razor 2, to remove the green unit, and to smash the avionics. They then laid explosive charges.
They loaded Bin Ladenís body onto the Chinook along with the cache of intelligence in plastic bin bags and headed toward the USS Carl Vinson. As they flew off they blew up Razor 2. The whole operation had taken 38 minutes.
The following morning White House officials announced that the helicopter had crashed as it arrived, forcing the Seals to abandon plans to enter from the roof. A photograph of the situation room showed a shocked Hillary Clinton, the secretary of state, with her hand to her mouth.
Why did they get it so wrong? What they were watching was live video but it was shot from 20,000 feet by a drone circling overhead and relayed in real time to the White House and Leon Panetta, the CIA director, in Langley.
The Seals were not wearing helmet cameras, and those watching in Washington had no idea what was happening inside the buildings.
They donít understand our terminology, so when someone said the insertion helicopter has crashed, they assumed it meant on entry, said Pfarrer.
What infuriated the Seals, according to Pfarrer, was the description of the raid as a kill mission. Iíve been a Seal for 30 years and I never heard the words kill mission, he said.
Itís a Beltway [Washington insiders] fantasy world. If it was a kill mission you donít need Seal Team 6; you need a box of grenades. Hooyah!
As Paul Harvey would say: You now know the rest of the story!
Please pass this on to everybody in your e-mail address book.
In God we trust! If you can read thisÖthank a teacher. If you are reading it in EnglishÖthank a Veteran.
-- Thank you. Mark Ferris "Action Always Beats Reaction!"
Swindling Arkansas Veterans, A Video Uploaded To YouTube:
More High Ranking VA Crap Gets Flushed Down The Toilet:
More VA high-ranking crap gets flushed down the toilet, people Iím chowing down on the same steak I chowed down on when I returned from Vietnam in 1969 couldnít have happened to a more deserving bunch of criminal scumís of the earth. And I say take it right on down to da bone with that same bunch of criminal scum sucking leeches in the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock and all of the trouble making cowards that sucks up to them. This is where the Lawmakers, your Governor, past lawmakers and past Governors and the news media fear to tread and why these criminals blood sucking leeches have managed to slip under the radar all of these years.
This is one of those times I truly wish I could used the language I would rather be using for these criminal jerks, I just wish my two deceased brothers (one an in country Vietnam veteran and one a Vietnam Era veteran) and my mom were still around to have seen this happen. This doesnít make up for all of the untold mental hell and anguish and they suffered at the hands of the VA, but it sure is one hell of good start.
In less than three months three top ranked administrators have left the Arkansas Department of Veterans Affairs, and they each have left scandals behind them.
Well hereís one of your reasons why veterans of Arkansas have been shafted through the years and why VA Regional Office in Arkansas in Arkansas is ranked one of the worst in the nation for getting a claim awarded. Hereís one of the reasons why veterans, are loath to file for compensation under Agent Orange and PTSD, or any compensation for that matter, and why the backlog of VA claims in topping a million. Hereís some more of those upper ECHELON stings, bloody noses and black eyes and another shipload of crow for you chow down on. How does it taste and feel?
Non-Compensated Gay Vietnam Veteran:
The Real Reason Why Veterans Are Being Shafted
Just found out from one of my contacts, The Office Of The Inspector General Hotline doesn't have the authority to investigate a state Department Of Veterans Affairs. Means the criminals in the VA Regional Office and the Arkansas Department Of Veterans Affairs have a blank check to steal whatever they please and whatever thievery they choose to pull as long as they don't get caught and never cause the Department Of Veterans any embarrassment. Also means the OIG is Ghost Department created by and for the Department Of Veterans Affairs with no real authority or power to investigate anyone for anything. I've wondered for decades why veterans get shafted so much, well I got my answer, state department of veterans affairs is run by the state and for the state and with no outside power over it. I got an email stating the title of this article is embarrassing, well here's a news flash the whole God Damned Department of Veterans Affairs and VA Regional Office's as well is an embarrassment to any veteran that ever served in the Armed Forces and every rotten stinking department in it.
Received Through Email: [VeteranIssues] 60 Minutes Gets an Honest Answer about Veterans defrauding the U.S. taxpayer:
Veteranís Activists Paul Sullivan of Veterans for Common Sense (VCS) was on camera when CBS 60 minutes investigative reporter Byron Pitts asked what can be called the Stolen Valor question.
Listen yourselves at what Pitts asked Sulliven Ė something to the effect of how does the VA balance its responsibility to U.S. taxpayers with its responsibility to Americaís Veterans. [This is an outlandish assumption that most Veterans scam and defraud the U.S. taxpayer - hum!]
Paulís response was short and to the point. The number of Veterans who scam the VA on a yearly basis could be counted on one hand. That is what we need to say to the NEOCONs of the world who have downplayed PTSD, Agent Orange and will belittle any ailment coming out of the Iraq and Afghanistan wars Ė on this we Veterans can depend.
Have we not heard this same refrain about responsiblity to U.S. tax payers before from the likes of B.G. Burkett and Dr. Sally Satel?
After Vietnam, ultra-conservative Veterans, and the conservative politicians that they supported, preached that both PTSD and Agent Orange, but especially PTSD, were the basis of fraudulent claims by Veterans to the VA.Hell, they challenged the very existence of PTSD that must have thrilled a Pentagon in much need of cannon fodder for the last days of Vietnam.
Readers that was what over 35 years ago yet that attitude is still going strong or Pitts would never have asked that question. Later, neo-conservatives like Burkett were joined by at lease ONE neo-conservative psychiatrist named Sally Satel.
The main emphasis of the stolen valor argument was that veterans in large numbers were defrauding the American tax payer by faking PTSD. A mental health condition they claimed was easy to fake.
However, the main thrust of Stolen Valor was on attacking FAKE VETERANS period. Yet, it has never been explained to any intelligent person exactly how a fake veteran gets into the VA system be it during Vietnam, after Vietnam, or today. Anyone vaguely familiar with the VA system knows that it is hard enough for a legitimate veteran to get into the VA.
Does the name Sally Satel ring a bell. It should if you are a PTSD advocate or researcher (regardless of your political biases and yes you have them).
She used the stolen valor arguments of B.G. Burkett right up to 2004, if not beyond, to compare young Iraq and Afghanistan Vets with Vietnam Vets when it came to PTSD. This attitude now entrenched within the VA system is why we will forever have a backlog of claims at the VA.
Taking the ultra-conservative American Enterprise Institute (AEI) position she represents (if one doesnít think professional MDs and Shrinks are non-partisan THINK AGAIN) Dr. Sally asked how does one explain the postwar explosion in Vietnam PTSD cases?
The frequently excuse Sally says is that the start of PTSD can be delayed for months or years. This belief, however, has no support in research studies. And consider the striking absence of delayed cases in long-range studies like that of people affected by the Oklahoma City bombing. Such studies have found that symptoms of PTSD almost always develop within days of the traumatic event and, in about two-thirds of sufferers, fade within a year.
She then goes on to attack the early pioneers of PTSD research using words and logic right out of the much biased and politically partisan Stolen Valor by B.G. Burkett. I used Burkettís roll of toilet paper not to hack his book but to show and example of how the crap he wrote about in that book still has a conservative following given Sally Satel is still around fighting the PTSD fakers.
Sally says that it is worth noting that the concept of delayed PTSD was introduced in the early 1970's by a group of psychiatrists led by Robert Jay Lifton, an outspoken opponent of the war. Burkett used the terminology the Lifton and other LIBERALS at the VA collaborated with Vietnam Veterans of American to defraud the American taxpayer on the degree of PTSD. In fact, Burkett went a step further in downplaying both PTSD and Agent Orange.
She notes that these liberal Psychiatrists (remember she is a NEOCON psychiatrist just as there are NEOCON doctors, nurses, and so on). These liberals decided that many former Soldiers suffered what was called post-Vietnam syndrome Ė marked by ďalienation, depression, an inability to concentrate, insomnia, nightmares, restlessness, uprootedness and impatience with almost any job or course of studyĒ Ė and that this distinguished veterans of Vietnam from those of any other war.
Sally also notes that there was little data to back up the existence of this delayed syndrome, but that PTSD stole a Vietnam Veterans valor. Say what?
It was THE IMAGE of the veteran as a walking time bomb [Rambo] that was a boon to the antiwar movement, which used it as proof that military aggression destroys minds and annihilates souls. Yes, some veterans suffered the crippling anxiety of chronic PTSD. But the broad-brush diagnosis of post-Vietnam syndrome also served political ends. Here she is referring to the conservative MYTH of how THE LIBERALS lost the Vietnam War. Note also that she and other NEOCONs use the broad brush stroke that anyone and everyone who questioned let alone opposed the Vietnam War was a liberal (from media giants such as Walter Cronkite to the mainstream media in general once it stopped selling the war right down to professional medical people who held a diverse political ideology). Today if readers be Libertarians or Independents yet still hold conservative values, she and her kind will still label you a LIBERAL if you question or oppose not only the Vietnam war, but the current wars that she sees as connected and fears THE LIBERALS will once again END and LOSE.
However she also notes there are a couple of other reasons to be skeptical of most troops claiming PTSD. For one, there is an economic incentive to claim suffering. Now more than ever she would agree with Paul Sullivan but for a different reason. The economic meltdown is driving more elderly Veterans to the VA with the intention of scamming the government and ripping off the American people. If that were not a fact, once again CBS correspondent Bryan Pitts would not have asked Paul Sullivan about the incidents of Veterans defrauding the VA.
It is the Sally Satelís and B.G. Burketts of the world, many of them unfortunately Veterans determined to leave their brothers and sisters behind that will make claims like this. Veterans have an economic incentive to file a VA claim regardless if they are disabled or not.
In her own words, Sally says that a ďveteran deemed to be fully disabled [100%] by post-traumatic stress disorder can collect $2,000 to $3,000 a month, tax free. More important, perhaps, the syndrome provides a medicalized explanation for many unhappy, but not necessarily traumatized, veterans trying to make sense of their experience.[Frankly the politically biased doctor who has never seen combat nor worked closely with combat veterans experiencing PTSD fails to mention that very few veterans warrant a rating of 100% with PTSD alone. It has to be combined with other ailments]
In talking about the growing number of Vietnam Vets claiming PTSD later in life Dr. Sally notes that it is in your imagination. She claims that psychological studies have shown that Vietnam Vets tend to reconstruct the past in terms of the present Ė Vets often exaggerate the degree of earlier misfortune if they are feeling bad, or minimize old troubles if they are feeling good.
Some of the Vets interviewed by 60 minutes, and quite a few Vietnam Vets not interviewed would either find it impossible to prove a combat connection (even if combat stress were the major trigger of PTSD since the triggers vary as much as individual personalities).
However, her kind are proponents of denying VA claims unless there is a clear link to combat trauma.
THIS IS WHY I BELIEVE THAT IT IS IMPORTANT FOR YOUNGER MORE ENERGIZED VETERANS ADVOCATES TO TAKE THE VA HEAD ON IN THIS EXCUSE TO DELAY, DENY, UNTIL WE DIE ATTITUDE THAT REMAINS ENTRENCHED AT THE VA REGARDLESS WHAT VA TALKING DOGS HAVE TO TELL MAINSTREAM MEDIA!!!
Donít take my word for it, listen to Dr. Sally, ďit is vital that researchers corroborate the battlefield events that veterans cite as causes of their PTSD. Unfortunately, researchers on the 1990 PTSD readjustment study did not do the archival legwork to verify the trauma that the veterans reported. Until a better study is done, the ďfactsĒ on post-Vietnam PTSD are simply speculation.
CONNECTING THE DOTS BETWEEN VIETNAM, IRAQ, AND AFGHANISTAN
Dr. Sally (though she does not work within the VA thank God, she once did) and others still entrenched within the VA have this attitude not only about Vietnam Vets but also younger Veterans that they view as WEAK as LIBERALS.
They promote the view that ďsome soldiers will return from Iraq and Afghanistan with severe psychological problems, and we must do everything in our power to help them. The vast majority, however, will be able to adjust on their own Ė and imposing on them the questionable legacy of Vietnam wonít do them any service. As the British psychiatrist Simon Wessely has put it: ďGenerals are justly criticized for fighting the last war, not the present one. Psychiatrists should be aware of the same mistake.Ē
THAT READERS (VIETNAM ERA VETS OR YOUNGER VETS) IS THE BOTTOM LINE ABOUT WHAT REALLY IS THE ROOT OF THE BACKLOG OF VA CLAIMS. EVEN IF DR. SALLY IS ONTO SOMETHING AND SHE AND B.G. BURKETT ARE FULL OF IT, THE ATTITUDE ALONE WOULD STILL HOLD UP OTHER VA CLAIMS THAT ARE NOT RELATED TO PTSD!
Robert L. Hanafin
Major, U.S. Air Force-Retired
Libertarian (Liberal, conservative, you name it)
PS: I got my 100% by knowing how to defeat the Satels and Burkettís of the world and shake my fist at their kind should they try taking my VA benefits away from me. I earned them!!! She never will, and Burkett degrades what weíve earned in the name of Stolen Valor!!!
DEPARMENT OF VETERANS AFFAIRS
2200 FORT ROOTS DRIVE, BLDG, 65
NORTH LITTLE ROCK, AR 72114-1756
Notice Of Disagreement to VA Regional Office, North Little Rock, AR
Denial on the VA claims came as old news to many years of bad blood between the VA and I and too much hate, evil and power involved to make sure they never are. As long as the VA and spineless gutless coward who stuck his nose into my affairs in New Orleans where he had no business nor authorization in the first placed and sucked ass until he got his whiny little greedy way and forced me back to his diseased ridden little cesspool can keep me locked in poverty, the VA and fucking coward can keep me locked in a disease ridden little prison town, a near virtual isolation chamber and in a generalized location that is run by and fueled on nothing but hate and ill will. But as the saying goes all things do end eventually and so it will be with the VA and Morrilton. One of my nephews was awarded a 20% disability from the VA Regional Office shortly after I filed the request through Veterans ONĖline Application for him but then he is also straight and in with the inner circle power wheel here, so once again that came as no surprise for me either.
The C-File shows nervousness which has been compensatable since on/or 1959, before during and following military service, which you assholes apparently choose to turn a blind eye to and no I'm not going to make this a coming to you with my hat in hand begging a bunch of haters who have no intention of ever awarding this claims in the first place type of appeal. And I for one have no intentions of even trying to win any type of VA claims that instantly cursed and hopelessly lost forever since 1982
Further I don't need a service organization or VSO to lose for me what I can loose on my own and will never get to begin with. VA Regional Office or the hate filled fucking coward would only offer them a nice incentive to either loose the claims or drop representation all together. It's happened to many God Damned times in the past. As a veteran who served during and in a war zone I am entitled to a non-service connected pension which again you assholes in the VA Regional Office following true to form are again ignoring and turning a blind eye to and using every legal loophole and trick in the book to deny as well. You betcha VA Regional is not going to like the wording of this Notice Of Disagreement nor did I intend for them to like it. I'm not beating a dead horse for anybody, least of all some God Damned gutless, spineless coward that doesn't even have the guts to drop his fucking name in the ring, and most assuredly any of those fucking old trolls in the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock, AR.
So the hate filled fucking coward can just keep the fucking strong curse as strong as ever, one raw deal after another and string it out to the God Damned bitter end, irrespective his fucking curse dies with me and for the record military burial honors are hereby rejected with extreme prejudice and contempt for the flag and what it has come to stand for. C-File and military medical records show several stressor events one of which was the attack at Can Tho Delta Triangle aka iron triangle, Mekong Delta by the Viet Cong during the Tet Offensive, extreme panic following said attack, again which you assholes chose to omit altogether, high blood pressure and hypertension are compensatable another of those conditions which you bastards chose to ignore. Alcohol overdose at Vung Tau on/or about Nov. 1968, low testosterone levels that CAVHS has been aware of since on/or about 1974, head injury on/or about Sept 1968, the entire military tour beginning with Basic Training 1967-1969. GI shower on/or about Oct/Nov. 1967 during AIT. Left eye injury Hunter Army Airfield on/or about early/mid 1968 which is shown in military medical records In any case the fucking decision denial by The VA Regional Office, North Little Rock, AR is hereby appealed and not with any hope of any type of compensation non-service or otherwise, but to be nothing more than a painful thorn in the side of the VA Regional Office, North Little Rock, AR. I might misspell the names of places in Vietnam and some of my memories might be vague but that's because it was damned long ago and most of it is buried or locked under tons gray fog.
And don't waste your time setting up any personal hearings, you people are 50 miles away, transportation is non-existent, the fucking ride is to tiring, fucking gas is through the roof and it wouldn't make a difference one iota either way the claims were hopelessly lost in June 1982 when I came out of the closet to a God Damned VA psychologist Dr. Lewis Neal/Neel and the God Damned Hate Filled Fucking gutless inner circle member coward in this diseased ridden cesspool town who hasn't the courage to face me brought down a curse and vendetta of hate against me. Well he can just shove his rotten curse right straight up his fucking ass and not on the right and not the left but right in Z middle where I sincerely hope it causes him unbearable agony, doom and gloom. You can't even get the News Media to even think of going near the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock, AR unless it's one of their stupid "Everybody Has A Story" about some fine thing some idiot did and it never about the shit treatment veterans are having to put up with at Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System, The VA Regional Office nor a homeless veteran.
VA Regional Office In North Little Rock, AR Shits On Me Again:
Well the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock, AR fucked over me again with another denial on the VA claims, came as old news to me the claims were denied. To many years of bad blood between the VA and I and to much hate, evil and power involved to make sure they never are. I will of course appeal the decision when I get around to it before the time allowed expires, not with any hopes of ever having them awarded but to be nothing more than a thorn in the side of the VA Regional Office. As long as the VA can keep me locked in poverty, the VA can keep me locked in a disease ridden little prison town and in a generalized area that is run by and fueled on nothing but hate and ill will. But as the saying goes all things do end eventually and so it will be with the VA and Morrilton. One of my nephews was awarded a 20% disability from the VA Regional Office shortly after I filed the request through Veterans ONĖline Application for him but then he is also straight and in with the inner circle power wheel here, so once again that came as no surprise for me.
The non service connected pension wasn't even mentioned.
Sexual Impotence, The Subject Most Won't Even Admit Let Alone Talk About:
Iím gonna have to disagree anyone's assessment sexual libido a purely mental instead of physical thing. Iím an openly gay non-compensated Vietnam veteran and have been clinically impotent since military days 67-69. Before entering military service and yes I did serve in silence I had a great sexual life with no problems with erections. Sometime during mid 1968 during military service and following service I had a great deal of trouble achieving an erection with other people both male and female and following separation from active service although I woke up with morning erections as strong as before entering the military. Just recently through a urologist in Conway I discovered I have low testosterone levels and some of you might wish to give that some thought and have your testosterone level checked, and these days it's simply a matter of simple blood work.
And hereís the kicker people and pardon my colorful word but those God Damned Frankenstein freak doctors at Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System have known what the problem was since the days of Vietnam and have refused to treat me or other veterans for the very problem all the way through, but rather in favor of turning us into lab rats and specimens instead. I wonít go into the host of other problems the VA is refusing to acknowledge or treat but impotence and low sexual libido is most assuredly in the top ten. As long as The DOD and The Department of Veterans Affairs can keep veterans locked in poverty, the VA can keep veterans locked in generalized localities and use and heard the veteran like cattle, veterans are replenishableand expendable you know.
Neurological (nerve) damage, an enlarged prostate and stress are all contributing factors. At 64 I am now totally impotent and my libido is one level above zero and now very seldom do I even have morning erections. While mentally may play a great deal in it, physical problems play an even greater role and for years following service my mental sexual libido was at peak 115%, but the physical part of it simply wasnít there anymore, to state it in other terms the generator was running on full power, but the connecting wires to the appliance simply were either faulty, corroded or the appliance was faulty or corroded. I won't even go into some of the things the hypocritical church people used to tell me for being impotent and why God wasn't going to restore it to me, the very same ones who were beating a path to the doors of the closet cases in the wee hours of the morning and cheating on their wife's.
Further Thoughts About The VA Regional Office In North Little Rock, Arkansas:
When the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock Arkansas does deny my VA claims and they will eventually get around to it probably in about two or three years or so if I'm lucky that is, I plan on appealing their decision not with even the smallest hope the claims will ever be awarded (to much hate and power involved to see that they arenít) but rather so I can send the VA Regional Office another one of my letters letting them know precisely what the hate filled lying coward that messed it for me in Louisiana can go with himself. There are tons too much, power; greed, hate and outright evil involved for my claims to ever be awarded or any medications to be provided through the (Frankenstein doctors horror of horror stories) at Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System. Iíll also be mailing along with my appeal a picture letting them know why I donít need sex (my goverment does enough of that to me daily as it is) and to add a few more drops of bad blood to the witches caldron or should that have been the devils caldron, and itís my sincerest wish the VA Regional office reads into the appeal, and statement of the case all of the hate, animosity and ill will the hate filed lying coward has shown to me and my family over the years here in this cesspool nowhere mud hole town. The only reason it was done was out of nothing more than hate, greed and to hurt me anyway the coward could deny me and hurt me.
See Iím no longer even working toward the goal of having my VA claims approved not that they ever will be, theyíd do me about as much good now as all of my prayers have done through the long empty, wasted poverty filled years since I came out to a scum sucking North Little Rock VA psychologist named Dr. Lewis Neal in the early 1980's. Dr. Nealís mind and personal impression (and I use the title Dr. with extreme contempt) of me was already formed at first sight and before the interview even began, one of those VA jerks who smiles to your face and feels only animosity and treachery for you on the inside. Itís further my sincerely wish the lying hate filled coward where ever he is, has at least the chance to read this blog post and itís also one of fondest wishes (and if I had the power to bring down curseís I would do so) the lying hate filled coward has as least the very same curse dropped down into his lap and The Department of Veterans Affairs faces total disgrace, ruination and eventual dissolvement of The Department Of Veterans Affairs and all her Regional Offices as well.
I certainly will not wish for those things for others, and not even one of my fellow veterans, the very things a closed minded hate filled lying coward apparently has the power and connections to continue denying me. For my part of it the VA Regional office in North Little Rock can hold my claims and any benefits that might otherwise be due me, hostage and deny them indefinitely all they have ever been and all they will ever be are myths and pipe dreams, spewed out by the VA Regional Office to string me along. As for me giving the VA Regional Office any kind co-operation , I'd sooner co-operate with a spitting cobra in the wild. And the really rotten part about all of it, is the VA Regional Office will get to put untold numbers of Iragi veterans through the very same treachery, string along and outright lies.
The Devils Caldron And A Witches Brew
The Devils Caldron The North Little Rock, AR VA Regional Office And Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System
Just Got Banned By KLRT Channel 16 And Account Canceled
OH guess what dudes and dudettes? I got banned and my account canceled at KLRT channel 16 from posting further comments on KLRT because someone got royally P.O.ed about my responses to their comments about me. That's some more of that Bryant and Arkansas hate stuff when they barge into the kitchen and the heat turns out to be to hot for them, boy I'll sure get even you, I'll just get you banned completely, I''ll just report you that's what I'll do..
Well I just dropped KLRT Channel 16 as one of the news websites I visit and I will get over it and I will move on past it and KLRT will like most of the bad experiences and the two years in the Military, the bad times in Vietnam with CAVHS and The VA Regional Office in North Little Rock as well as a great deal of people here in Morrilton will in time become buried under tons of blessed fog. This is also some of the very same tactics used by some of the doctors and staff at CAVHS and The VA Regional Office and staff in North Little Rock, AR, like CAVHS and The VA Regional Office and apparently KLRT doesn't especially take kindly to gays and bans without even so much as a by your leave. Goodbye KLRT wish I could say it was nice visiting, but the truth is I can't and I won't. Hmmm would appear the cowards are at it again I see, so what else is old news in Arkansas.
Gays, Lesbians And Minority Groups:
Blacks have long been recognized as a monitory group, as have several ethnic groups including Native Americans and Hispanics. Gays and Lesbians have been persecuted throughout history, as have Blacks, Native Americans and even Protestants and religious leaders who were not of the Catholic faith, during the rein of Henry VIII. Not withstanding progress and change happened through the years either through open revolts, wars and conflicts, The Magna Carta, The Founding Fathers, The Declaration of Independence, The War of Independence, The Constitution and the Bill of Rights are prime examples. Further Through peaceful and some not so peaceful demonstrations, through assembly of the people and through marches. Through the riots of Stonewall, long since recognized as the turn point in gay history and through the works of the poet Allen Ginsberg.
To borrow a line from an old television series I'll Fly Away some progress has been made but there is much progress still to be made, the historic repeal of Don't Ask, Don't Tell and the allowance of gays and lesbians to serve openly in all branches of the Military to name only one, is and was on par with the desegregation of Blacks serving in the Military during the Administration of Former President Harry S Truman. If so what would be the channels for adding gays and lesbians to a monitory group status who by their very orientation are non-recognized monitories in the work force as well as in American Society. Would such a bill be possible and how would such a bill be composed and drafted, how would it then be submitted and presented and would such a bill stand a chance of passing, a time may very well come possibly even in the near future when such a bill will be drafted and submitted. Any gay or Lesbian person that qualifies in a minority group and is automatically special and preferential treatment under the articles of that minority, this places an extreme unfair advantage on any Gay or Lesbian who doesn't qualify under a minority group.
C-File Treachery by The Department Of Veterans Affairs & The VA Regional Office:
Finally got a copy of my entire C-File, over 30 years worth of them weighing about 20 to 25 pounds from the VA Regional Office and only then after an attorney filed a Freedom Of Information Act. I havenít read through entire file in depth, because of the sheer number of documents contained in them, but one glaring condition sticks out like a big ugly sore thumb throughout them and the condition has been on the VA books since on or about 1959 as compensatable and is reflected before, during military and service while serving in Vietnam and throughout the years following my military service.
Since breezing through only parts of this C-File I am no longer surprised why the Department of Veterans Affairs doesnít want me to be represented by a qualified legal source and why the VA Regional office doesnít want anyone digging through these records. I am further not surprised by the Department Of Veterans Affairs has held this C-File hostage and applied endless miles of red tape, intentionally delayed them while dissecting this C-File until they could find a way to either delay them further until a reason for a denial could be found, these VA claims were intentionally deadlocked and the entire deck intentionally stacked against me from the word go. Little wonder the number of claims is hopelessly backlogged.
I guess the Occupy Wall Street protesters don't feel veterans are that important or anyone else for that matter, one would think the OWS would be camped out on the lots of the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock, CAVHS in Little Rock and the white house parking lots for better and fairer treatment of veterans and conditions in Arkansas and not to mention veterans along with them, but apparently veterans don't count, unless of course veterans want to join their movement and even then veterans would only tolerated and wouldn't be welcome to protest against VA Regional corruption. But then that's the way it is Arkansas these days protest start off pretty good and then just like a big stinky fart in the wind just kind of thin out and drift off into the blow zone. One would think in view of the number of veterans and especially homeless veterans and the homeless living in Arkansas tons of them would be coming from all over the state of Arkansas and be jumping on the bandwagon like ugly on a ape.
Perhaps the OWS protest leaders have taken a deal of some kind and sold out the movement or never really had the heart for it in the first place, while half heartedly keeping the movement alive or only wanted a little bit of public attention in Arkansas because it just happened to be a world wide movement. People the Hippies of the Woodstock 1969 generation would have called them a sell out to the establishment and would have launched an all out protest against the Occupy Wall Street Protesters. Not much is heard of the Occupy Wall Street protesters these days, most likely because the movement like most things in Arkansas has become stagnated and bogged down to the point of uselessness and obscurity. The Civil Rights movement would have never stood still for such a small turnout and Central High sure as hell never did.
Coalition Of Gay Vietnam Veterans is not affiliated with in any shape form or fashion with any gay website or websites offering and providing any and all gay content of an adult nature. Any redirect's using the name Coalition Of Gay Vietnam Veterans found on Google or any other search engine redirecting to any of these sites is strictly not authorized by this website or the owner of this website and should be reported. People in The VA Regional Office in North Little Arkansas are a very vindictive, cruel and cold hearted bunch of people, they fester like open wounds and plot revenge behind closed doors.
Wonder how many people working in the VA Regional Office and Central Arkansas Veteran Health Care System have are part of the Klu Klux Clan who preach hate and spew out poison, or how many of those people in the VA Regional or CAVHS has ties to any of them? And just how many lawmakers have ties to them or are actual members of the Klu Klux Klan and other hate groups? Because thatís a few of the places where theyíre doing the real damage. I forgot to mention many of them are fishing aholes buddies with members of the justice system, the judges and the attorneyís? Like all hate groups all theyíve done is gone underground. So let us never forget them and the hurt and wrong theyíve caused, so they can never do it again. Because CAVHS is a research facility only, in short CAVHS is nothing more than a Baron Victor Von Frankensteinís Laboratory and a training ground for a bunch of Igorís. Iím 50 miles west of them and I wonít even ride the van to seek treatment with them. A doctor in the ER here in Morrilton called on my behalf recently to set up an appointment for me, he was around my age, black and well remembers the times of the 1960's, the 1970's and the time of the draft. When he came in to inform me, he stated, ďR everybody in the VA knows youĒ and my reply ďI can guarantee you they didnít have anything good to say about meĒ.
I knew then and there it would be nothing more than a cold wasted effort. And had it not been for the intercession of higher authority in the medical field he would most likely have never made it to medical school. My sleeping cycles in Morrilton are out the window and which (CAVHS couldnít care less about treating), as is any real type of medical care, I sleep whenever I get to go to sleep. Iím not one bit surprised a VA doctor at CAVHS got chewed out for taking the time to talk with and with and examine a veteran, I suppose someone in CAVHS thought they would use me as a free freaking lab rat to dump whatever poisons they cared to dump in me and pull whatever amount of blood they thought they were entitled to, and they found out it wasnít gonna happen. There was attorney and he was not in the state of Arkansas decided in the recent past to represent me. I stated up front with the legal firm I wasnít going through any more C&P exams with the VA theyíre nothing more than delaying tactics perpetrated by the VA to keep their records updated about veterans and the veteran always comes out the looser. I was further under the impression all correspondence with the VA would be handled by the attorney, the attorney assured me they could and would handle the case with existing records. I wonder what bag of VA records crap the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock saw fit to send that law firm and exactly what kind deal the VA Regional cut with the attorney.
Itís sure as hell is not the first time itís happened with an attorney representing me and the VA because lest anyone think the VA will not use every loophole and trick in book and some that arenít even in the book against any veteran they donít want represented, then think about 10,000 times and then ponder it 10,000 times more. The VA Regional Office then sends me a large pack of letters and forms stating they needed more information about the conditions I was claiming as if the VA doesnít already have decades of medical records on me already. This attorney then comes back to me with some high pressure tactic demanding I keep any C&P exams the VA cares to throw my way or him and his firm wasnít going to represent me and at that point I advised him in precise full military gutter language precisely what he could do with his representation. CAVHS doctors might take it gracefully in the public, but you should see the open festering sores they become when in private and some of the flags they place in the medical records of veterans. As for North Little Rock its nothing more than a big bag of horror stories and forget the line ďbest medial care in Arkansas, its a lie from the word go and doesnít exist) you want reasonably good VA medical care take it to some other state. Get this I couldnít even get Nicotine patches without lab work, since when does nicotine patches require blood work. CAVHSís excuse (and it is a red tape excuse only) medications change the blood gasís well to hell with them, VA doesnít compensate me and has slammed every door in my face long ago, so the way I figure it is, their not entitled to even one teeny, tiny little drop of blood from me.
All Of The Years Are Gone Department Of Veterans Affairs
Some would say you brought it on yourself, in fact VA psychiatrist and all psychologists used to beat the hell out of that line every time I would go and talk with one of them. Well all except for the one that treated me in New Orleans that is. As Iíve said before all of my VA claims were denied in early 2003 shortly after returning to Arkansas. Received this little ole letter from The Department of Veterans Affairs out of Washington in todayís mail (07/10/2010), wrote refused three times on the front of it and FOVBA on the back of it and popped it back into the little ole mailbox. In fact didnít even give a damned what the contents of it were. Department of Veterans Affairs all of the years are gone now and you were never there for me when it might have done some good and made at least a few dreams possible.
Any letters I receive from the Department of Veterans Affairs or any veteranís organization for that matter with the exception of a newsletter from The VVAW I refuse them and return them. I havenít had the pleasure as yet though of handing out one of my standard form letters to any VFW, American Legion or DAV members on a membership drive yet but I sure got em standing by at the door lol.
As Iíve stated in previous comments and blog post all of my VA claims are now dead and buried for all time to come and Iíve slammed the door on the VA for all time remaining to me. Iíve no intentions whatsoever of letting anyone ever drag that kind of emotional hell inside me again not ever. Let em all go be with the liars, drug addicts, alcoholics and favorites that got all of the high dollar retroactive VA awards dumped down of top them, because I sure as hell was never one of them.
So if I brought all onto myself then so be it and I will live with, itís no different than all of the rest of the doors that were slammed in my face over the years. Only this time around I choose to do it with full knowledge and willingly. And now that Donít Ask Donít Tell stands a very good chance of being repealed and if it is, the Department of Veterans Affairs and that does include the VA Regional Office in Little Rock/North Little Rock will be obliged to deal with more gay veterans than they even care to think about bravo and Iím glad.
Copied in part From The Associated Press:
The Appeals Court has ordered VA to pay retroactive compensation to Vietnam Veterans with Chronic Lymphocyte Leukemia and flatly stated the Department of Veterans Affairs has contributed substantially to the sense of national shame. The remaining veterans in my family other than myself, one Vietnam who passed away on July the 4th 2001 and the other Vietnam Era who passed away just recently in Sept 2008 are deceased now along with most of my immediate family. Whatever type of assistance or compensation the VA might offer to me now, I will throw it right back in their faces and my door shall remain closed to the VA forever. The fact is I don't even accept Birthday gifts anymore, I truly cannot see celebrating another empty poverty, depression filled year where a bunch of closed minded assholes motivated by nothing other than hate and resentment in and surrounding Morrilton got to decide every bit of the content that went into filling it. The truth is I never had to go into the freaking Military in the first place and I sure as hell never had to stay in it after got in it, it wasn't because of patriotism I was to scared not to go.
By: R Gilbert
Non Compensated Gay Vietnam Veteran
The Little Rock/North Little Rock Veterans Administration Deceptions, Lies and Cover-ups
I hope to bring to the national consciousness the type of antagonistic and anti-gay mentality that is prevalent throughout the entire VA Regional Office and VA Medical Facilities in Little Rock/North Little Rock, Arkansas those in the North Little Rock AR VA Regional Office, Central Arkansas Veterans Healthcare System Eugene J. Towbin Healthcare Center in North Little Rock and McClellan Hospital in Little Rock, AR. There are no less than five (See Hall of Shame) recognized and active hate groups in the State of Arkansas, and I have little doubt that the Little Rock/North Little Rock VA Regional Office and VA Medical Facilities are controlled by a large number of them. I guess psychotic is as good a label as any for the VA doctors in Little Rock/North Little Rock, AR to label me with. I'm sure as hell not the first and most surely will not be the last one to be given thatlabel. No one can pin down all of the resons for depression and PTSD, but the VA in their goverment trained, sponored and paid for idiocity can pin it right on down to a few specifics whooo Hoooooo.
A lot of assholes in the VFW, The DAV, The American Legion and all of the other veterans outreach groups are very quick to point out that I lied on induction papers, well what else is old news and how many lies has the Military, The Government and The Department of Veterans given out over the years. What I think The Department of Veterans Affairs is really pissed off about is I and gay veterans across the country made it. Served honorably in silence and never got outed and discharged in disgrace and so much for their stinking "threat to national security excuse", and I have to wonder at times if it would really have made any difference had I answered yes to any homosexual tendencies. In those days Don't Ask, Don't Tell was even an option. And I really feel The Department of Veterans Affairs, has never given any thought to even the remotest possibility the Gay Movement would ever obtain the political clout that it has now.
This is my theory for a large number of problems faced by gay veterans in Arkansas, and is based in part from my experiences and conversations with the Regional Office, VA Counselors and Outreach Counselors, McClellan Hospital, The VFW, The American Legion, The DAV and various Veterans Outreach organizations. Some have called this ranting and ravings against the man and a cold cruel world so be it, no apologies are offered and none are given. If it were up to those people these so called "Vanity Sites" wouldn't even be on the web. You would have to submit it to their advisory board and it would be the same as trying to get VA compensation, if not impossible, damned near it.
Some have told me I don't know how the VA system works and that may be true. But I sure as hell know when the entire deck is stacked against me (and triply so for a gay Vietnam veteran). My observations here are based on a lifetime of lies perpetrated by the Department of Veterans Affairs and small town Society in this neck of the woods.
My service dates (got drafted) were 9 May 1967 to 1 May 1969. For the two years of my active service and up until mid 1974, I hid my sexual preference. In 1980 I was awarded a Non-Service connected pension for nerves and lack of income. This would be terminated in June 1982 because of a re-evaluation report by Dr. Lewis Neal of the Little Rock VA Regional Office. There is little doubt my Sexual Orientation was a deciding factor in that denial, (see Discrimination Veterans Administration).
Though I am mostly self-taught, a good deal of my training comes from the Universities of Ole Screw U, also known as The United States Army and The Veterans Administration. I was even presented with a nice 8x10 certificate "Suitable For Framing" from The University of Screw U Department of The United States Army appropriately titled Honorable Discharge.
In his report Dr. Neal stated my grammar and diction were consistent with my ninth grade education and my self professed Bisexuality. Although the report presented by Dr Neal is highly discriminatory and inflammatory it does present all of the symptoms of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) with the exception of the statement about my self-professed Bisexuality.
On or about 1998 or 1999 the Adjudication Officer Fredrick H King deliberately lied to the Little Rock Office of Senator Hutchinson in which he stated that I had informed (Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System) CAVHCS that I wished to withdraw my claim for compensation due to lack of transportation. Truth is however I had informed CAVHCS that I wish to cancel a medical appointment due to lack of transportation.
I view the time I spent in the Military as a curse, nothing more nothing less and dealings with the VA and VA doctors, The DAV, The VFW, The American Legion here in Arkansas and elsewhere as an even bigger curse. And you will not find any gratitude on this site for any of them. The fact is I've never been welcomed by the Gay or Straight world. What little sexual life I had was taken away by the two years of Military service, and gives every indication of making it a lifelong deal.
Little Rock and Arkansas is so small, impoverished and un-important that no one will get involved. It's one of those places where everyone feels that it nobodies business. Since on or about 1976 as an openly Gay Disabled Vietnam Veteran I have existed on a small Social Security Disability check and the VA has denied me service connection on all types of compensation.
The most recent denial was in early 2003, and I have suffered from PTSD since day one of the Military and extreme panic attacks since the last part of 1968 and Vietnam to the present. I am currently living and have lived below the poverty level due to psychological difficulties stemming from and or aggravated by my Military service and since being Honorably separated from the Military in 1969. Since that time and because of the mental anguish they cause me and the brick wall atitude of the VA I have decided my claims are hopeless and dead and buried, never to be re-opened again.
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